Recently I had a “but why?...” session with one of my dear friend. We kinda had a fallout in between, where we weren’t talking to each other, reasons which were given – that we were busy with our work, no time for socialising, but the ugly truth was that my male ego was clashing with her “perfect” feminine ego/ attitude. Now why this war of egos, lets not get into that.
So one fine day I decided to kill my ego and make the 1st move. For a few days we chatted normally. Now since we were getting back to being comfortable with each other again, the sharing part started, where in both parties share everything which is going on in their lives: mostly the crap stuff, how life is a bitch and the usual. So after few such sessions, she asks me, “Kartik, why do you like me so much that you always come back & show faith in our relation? Why is that whenever anything happens I’m the 1st one to freak out & go in a shell? Why is that you always stand by me? Why is it that, you always come back for me even when I’m mean, selfish, inconsiderate towards you. Even when I hurt you? What have I done to deserve such unconditional love & commitment from people I hurt the most?” (okk so madam wants some attention now, some buttering, some nice words about her so that her feminine ego doesn’t remain bruised :P )
Now there are those “whys” which sometimes don’t have any answers. I tried my best to reason out stuff with her, but couldn’t put up a solid argument. I described certain incidents which are very dear to me, & due to which, have made her dear to me. Still she wasn’t satisfied (as is the case with all the descendants of Venus, this coding has been embedded in their chip right from birth & the code is based on some complex matrix coding, so hard to break :P). Anyways, I moved on by putting my full logic & reasoning to test, but could get half the answer to the question.
I guess there are no answers to certain “whys”. When you connect with a person, there can be many reasons, & some are unexplained. Why you keep going back to that person – well may be because the time you have spent together, the thoughts which you have shared, your matching wavelengths, something which the other person has done for you, or how you feel for that person. Well there are lot of reasons, but none conclusive. May be this is the reason why people are heartbroken after a breakup.
These “whys” have been around for a long time & will be around, it’s up to us how we deal with them. Some might get answered, some will remain a mystery. But the quest will always be on until time gets the best of us. BUT WHY!!!! …..
